melalut di pagi jumaat

fuh... tak sangka it's been 14 days since my last paper. right now i'm put my eyes on my thesis. gila sampai skarang tak siap lagi. i don't know how to face my lecturer. nasib baik dia ok dah skit. but i have to submit to her by hook or by crook next week. paling kurang pun dia leh tolong betul kan yang aku salah.

rite now i'm listening to michael buble`'s songs. damn i have to admit his songs are like are arrows, they go str8 to my heart and got cungkil some more. like this song that i'm listening now "wonderful tonite". for those yang nak cairkan hati buah hati pengarang jantung korang lagu ni memang sesuai sangat. special nya pasal lagu ni, it's a jazz song n ada lirik dalam french lagi... pergh kalo tak jiwang lagi, i suggest u to dedicate eddie hamid's songs to ur loved ones.... tangkap leleh beb.

terbuai-buai rasanya bila dengar lagu ni. it reminds me betapa bestnya kalo dilamun cinta. namun fokusnya di sini ada ke yang nakkan aku? kadang2 it's difficult for me to understand myself. when i saw a couple walked pass me damn i really want to have one tapi bila diri sendiri nearly fell in love takder plak tergedik-gedik ngan bermesra2an. dah kata manusia, sometimes we're not grateful for the thing that given to us. ada je yang tak cukup. but i never give up. dah dikatakan kita ni hidup berpasangan mesti ada la sorang yang sesuai untuk kita kan?

buat masa skang ni it's better for me to fokus kat tempat lain dulu. after this baru la pikir pasal benda tu. income 5 figure pun aku tak rasa lagi. dah rasa benda tu baru pikir nak memikat ke nak kawin ke amik anak angkat ke (worst case kalo tak kawin la). hehe

bengang gak bila tengok mamat gemuk usung awek kurus cantik bak model. i ask myself "teruk sangat ke muka aku ni. am i too gay to get one chick to be my partner?" well best man wins rite. skang ni gemuk o kurus tak menjadi hal. the most important is the guts. it's doesn't matter how handsome u r, how long or big dick u have if u don't have guts semua tu tak guna.

mak memang gemuk tapi pentingnya mak ada guts....

hell, kita semua terlupa seburuk mana pun konfem sekonfemnya ada yang cantik dalam diri kita.

recently....

finally i have my own blog! after a year n a half writing at friendster's blog now i know how to use blogger. it's pretty sad since a lot of my friend have already known to use blogger.com. writing at friendster's blog is like living in rental room. small and not colourful n it's not a real blog (from my opinion la). and here, it's like living in a small house (still!) but it's cosier n i hope i have a lot of thing to talk here. i'll try my best to entertain u guys (gila perasan ada peminat!)... but i do hope some of u will love my writing... i can't write like jk rowling or use beautiful language like jrr tolkien but i do hope what i'm writing will be delivered to urself.

recently a lot of things had happened to me. n last week was a i-will-remember-it-forever week. it was like a movie and it had happened at rumah no 2, jln 17/21D seksyen 17 pj. it's too complicated for me to tell u guys here n i really don't want to think about it anymore. but the most important thing is i've got my lesson - no need to help people who is stubborn n not appreciate our help. how do u feel when ur friend was in trouble n asked u to make him bz but suddenly he still wanted to be in the circle of problem? it really piss me off. i'm learning to erase everthing n trying on something else since it's not my fucking hell problem.

but deep inside my heart.... i feel like a dumb! and it hurts me so bad after i realized what we had done to ease his sadness n tension was useless.

recently too i'm listening to chinese songs. it happened last two weeks when i listened to lee hom's song da cheng xiao ai. actually i was introduced to this fella when i was 15. that time i didn't take pot so much since i didn't know mandarin. so i only smiled whenever he told me about lee hom with ethusiasm. after 7 years, i'm still don't know to speak mandarin but i started to like chinese songs. i got his songs from Yeng Ling, my chinese friend n after listened to em few times i was hooked. jiwang n really nice! even though i don't know the lyrics but the music is telling u the emotions of the songs.

i hope a lot of new things happen to me coz life is short n we must enjoy it. we live once so why not we fill the given space with extraordinary things?